I'm ready to bounce. I mean honestly, talk about dragging it out. Patiences is a virtue that I don't have. I'm trying to learn it though. I really am. I would love to have it ans say, " ah, in due time." Oh, no. I am totally bored here and ready to go.
I'm literally trying not to fall asleep. *Yawwwwwn*
Please tell me what to do to stop this dang sleep. I like blogs that aren't all deep all the time. My thoughts get pretty deep. Yet, sometimes, it's as simple as 'I'm sleepy.' Nothing in depth, nothing profound; just sleep. I was told today that if I never used another semi-colon in my life, I'd be fine. I agree. I hate them. I just used one didn't I? Well, that's how you know I"m sleepy. I'm using semi-colons for no good reason.
I can't think of anything else to say. I'm that sleepy.
*yawwwn*
Tuesday, February 26, 2008
Monday, February 25, 2008
14 Months!
So the wedding of the decade is in 14 months! Get off me! Get off me! I'm so excited because I love Andrew so much it's ridiculous! I can't wait to be his wife! Dude, I never thought I'd say that. It seems so surreal that I'm gonna be someone's wife soon. Yes, compared to the rest of my life, 14 months is quick! I got a new job and things are really nice right now. I'm so grateful to God for this. He really does answer prayer. He also doesn't give you what isn't for you. When I look back over my life, and I think things over; I have a testimony! No, seriously, I do. I think about all the things I wanted that weren't for me and how God spared me from myself! How I truly didn't know what he had in store for me and almost took anything. There were also times when I new where I was, wasn't where I was supposed to be. So, I left. I'm glad I had to be put out of my comfort zone in order to be changed and have those things God had for me.
I'm still trying to be obedient to Him and do those things that are pleasing! I'm so honored to be Drew's wife (when it happens).
14 Months to go!! I'm gonna be real. I'm so geeked for the glitz and glitter, mostly because I know we truly do have a reason to celebrate.
Amen!!! Amen.
I'm still trying to be obedient to Him and do those things that are pleasing! I'm so honored to be Drew's wife (when it happens).
14 Months to go!! I'm gonna be real. I'm so geeked for the glitz and glitter, mostly because I know we truly do have a reason to celebrate.
Amen!!! Amen.
Thursday, February 21, 2008
Marriage
My brother is getting married Sunday. They sort of eloped. We all knew about it, but they are past the frivolities at this point. Twelve years and five children later, it's just time to go for it; and I couldn't be happier for them.
My parents have been married for 32 years come this September and they fight like cats and dogs. I think that's where I get my confrontational attitude from. Well, I see the dynamics of my parents shaping my relationship right now. My mother was an only child. She says she wasn't spoiled, there is substantial evidence to prove otherwise. When they disagree, she retreats. She goes to "her space" and gets over it. Drew does the same thing. My dad, much like myself, had siblings growing up. When he got mad, I'm guessing he confronts it and deals with it then and there. That's my philosophy. I don't think there is a point in walking away and getting over it. There is warrent to letting steam off, but you still have to confront the issue. To me, there is nothing more irratating than confronting issues over and over and over again.
I see my parents in our relationships often. Even in our love for each other. Which brings me to my brother. I am happy that they are getting married. I'm happy that they are committing to each other. That is a helluva committment.
There is a point where you are scared as all get out that one fight is gonna be the "big one". That it will just take that quake of an argument to end the relationship. Some people don't wed because of that. They are like, what if? What if we fight and end it, what if I give everything of myself, and put it all out there naked-like, baby born, and raw; and he/she craps on me? That's a big what if. But it is a thought that I have at least thought about. I have been scared like that and really wondered, what the heck I'm doing being engaged to someone, letting them have that peice of me.
Then there is that point when something else happens. It doesn't even have to be that big scary fight you've feared. It could just be that moment when something; ( don't ask me what it is, I don't know for sure) inside you says. Why not? It is a bit more sophisticated than that, I don't want to mislead people into thinking that they can just go up to strangers and say ' why not?' and have at it. Yet, when you really disect all of the intricate parts of your heart, and that other person is an integral piece of it, then you're on to something. So yes, time does have to be a factor. Experiences do have to happen; as my readings have taught me, a marriage has to take place before the actual wedding.
I'm glad that after 12 years, a marriage has taken place. After 32 years, there is still a marriage there. After a year and a half, me and drew are committed to building our marriage. Even after April 09', we will have to continue to work on it, but it will be there. That marriage will have been established and we will have something to celebrate!
My parents have been married for 32 years come this September and they fight like cats and dogs. I think that's where I get my confrontational attitude from. Well, I see the dynamics of my parents shaping my relationship right now. My mother was an only child. She says she wasn't spoiled, there is substantial evidence to prove otherwise. When they disagree, she retreats. She goes to "her space" and gets over it. Drew does the same thing. My dad, much like myself, had siblings growing up. When he got mad, I'm guessing he confronts it and deals with it then and there. That's my philosophy. I don't think there is a point in walking away and getting over it. There is warrent to letting steam off, but you still have to confront the issue. To me, there is nothing more irratating than confronting issues over and over and over again.
I see my parents in our relationships often. Even in our love for each other. Which brings me to my brother. I am happy that they are getting married. I'm happy that they are committing to each other. That is a helluva committment.
There is a point where you are scared as all get out that one fight is gonna be the "big one". That it will just take that quake of an argument to end the relationship. Some people don't wed because of that. They are like, what if? What if we fight and end it, what if I give everything of myself, and put it all out there naked-like, baby born, and raw; and he/she craps on me? That's a big what if. But it is a thought that I have at least thought about. I have been scared like that and really wondered, what the heck I'm doing being engaged to someone, letting them have that peice of me.
Then there is that point when something else happens. It doesn't even have to be that big scary fight you've feared. It could just be that moment when something; ( don't ask me what it is, I don't know for sure) inside you says. Why not? It is a bit more sophisticated than that, I don't want to mislead people into thinking that they can just go up to strangers and say ' why not?' and have at it. Yet, when you really disect all of the intricate parts of your heart, and that other person is an integral piece of it, then you're on to something. So yes, time does have to be a factor. Experiences do have to happen; as my readings have taught me, a marriage has to take place before the actual wedding.
I'm glad that after 12 years, a marriage has taken place. After 32 years, there is still a marriage there. After a year and a half, me and drew are committed to building our marriage. Even after April 09', we will have to continue to work on it, but it will be there. That marriage will have been established and we will have something to celebrate!
Wednesday, February 20, 2008
Love, Life, and PR
I love when people say, " I'm such a people person." That is so redundant. If you are a person, you are by existance, a people person.
The reality is that most people, by choice, aren't.
They go out of there way to avoid people. I don't know why that is. It just is. People love to avoid eye contact, speaking, touching, listening, and acting; all the things that makes us people.
I was inspired my former collegiate friend to return to my blog. It's so relaxing. Plus, I get a chance to write again.
Love: It's great. It's violent emotionally, but most things that are inconsistant, sporadic, heavy, and totally worth are. Sorry to state it to those hopeless romantics. Love is a tough. It is patient and kind and all of those things in II Corinthians, but it is also shared between two humans for the most part. We have to aspire to get that sort of love that God has; that AGAPE love. SO, what do humans do? We try so hard NOT to be people persons and we make love that much harder. In it's most quiet and worthwile moments; for me, love is beautiful.
Life: I'm here. What else can I say. Had this been May of 2007, had I had a class in Cole Hall; I might not be. All I can say, is that God has a purpose for my life. Outside of that; I really cannot complain.
PR: Back to this "people person" idea. I love when people say, " I'm a people person." I love that because it shows me that people really don't know much about themselves or PR for that matter. PR is not just about people. It's about people's minds. You have to be manipulative at best, persuasive at least, and you have to posess the ability to know when to be what to which people. I had a dream that I didn't know anything about PR. I thought that I should have been a firefighter or a teacher or something. I'm still going to be a professor, but maybe kindergarten or something. In that dream, I was so discouraged. I was being criticized daily, yelled at, ran ragged, and losing my mind trying to do "PR". Now that I think about it, it wasn't a dream. It was reality, I just fell asleep at my desk. I had a good mind to wake up and walk out.
Then something miraculous happend. I met a few people who told me that I did know exactly what I was talking about. They told me not to give up because I was made for this. They said things like " impressed" and " awesome" and " you are so easy to talk to".
I guess I am a people person.
The reality is that most people, by choice, aren't.
They go out of there way to avoid people. I don't know why that is. It just is. People love to avoid eye contact, speaking, touching, listening, and acting; all the things that makes us people.
I was inspired my former collegiate friend to return to my blog. It's so relaxing. Plus, I get a chance to write again.
Love: It's great. It's violent emotionally, but most things that are inconsistant, sporadic, heavy, and totally worth are. Sorry to state it to those hopeless romantics. Love is a tough. It is patient and kind and all of those things in II Corinthians, but it is also shared between two humans for the most part. We have to aspire to get that sort of love that God has; that AGAPE love. SO, what do humans do? We try so hard NOT to be people persons and we make love that much harder. In it's most quiet and worthwile moments; for me, love is beautiful.
Life: I'm here. What else can I say. Had this been May of 2007, had I had a class in Cole Hall; I might not be. All I can say, is that God has a purpose for my life. Outside of that; I really cannot complain.
PR: Back to this "people person" idea. I love when people say, " I'm a people person." I love that because it shows me that people really don't know much about themselves or PR for that matter. PR is not just about people. It's about people's minds. You have to be manipulative at best, persuasive at least, and you have to posess the ability to know when to be what to which people. I had a dream that I didn't know anything about PR. I thought that I should have been a firefighter or a teacher or something. I'm still going to be a professor, but maybe kindergarten or something. In that dream, I was so discouraged. I was being criticized daily, yelled at, ran ragged, and losing my mind trying to do "PR". Now that I think about it, it wasn't a dream. It was reality, I just fell asleep at my desk. I had a good mind to wake up and walk out.
Then something miraculous happend. I met a few people who told me that I did know exactly what I was talking about. They told me not to give up because I was made for this. They said things like " impressed" and " awesome" and " you are so easy to talk to".
I guess I am a people person.
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