So here is what has happend.
* I left the "gauntlet" that was called WSW
* I got a great job at this agency right up the street
* I got sick and am working through that
* My job is paying for me to go to Hawaii
* My wedding is in less than 13 months
* BENEFITS!
* My momma is here for Easter ( Happy EACHER)
* Hair cut off and now braided up
* Au'Natural
* Gained about 15lbs since November
* In diar straights to lose it
* Turning 5 years old in Zeta (whoohoo!)
That's a lot of stuff right? Yeah, I'd agree. There is so much going on, but sometimes it seems as though not a lot is happening right now. I will be glad when I can settle into a nice salary range, a nice home, a nice car, and then I can start to give back. That's the funny thing with me. It's not that I'm never satisfied, it's that I want to be in a place where I can focus on my giving, not my getting. I feel that it is possible to do both, but a lot of times God will bless you so that you can be a blessing to others as well as when you bless others He will bless you! I think it's an awesome dichotomy. In my life though, I'm so consumed by the getting (in terms of getting things in order) that I put all the great things I want to do on the back burner. That's not happening this year, this year, I'm going to do both.
So, that's a goal. Let's try for the getting and giving thing. One other thing; school. I did an awesome job on my mid-term for one class (which I give all glory to God for) and now we have a group project. Now, I'm gonna say this. WHY get into a grad program without access to a computer with the internet?? I mean for real? My group member ( yes I'm gonna toss in that she's a bit older) is lacking the computer skills. She's killing us. I don't want to put her on blast but she's messing with our grades. If I can get that on track, then that would be awesome. I really don't care for this class so I'm just going to get that out of the way.
Easter. YAY GOD! Thank you Jesus! You know, as much as I like -read LOVE- Christmas, I really am touched more at Easter. You just can't lose the message for Easter. It's in your face, gritty, and deep. He died for me. I mean, I can't forget that. ( Busts into "I can't forget".) There is no way that I could ever forget that. He is so awesome to me and he is just remarkable for that sacrifice. So in honor of the fact that the Lord came and died for me, I'm making greens! :) Mustard Greens at that! I know I know, but its the best I can do for the moment. My mom is cooking and you know, she has some good things to throw in the pot. It's supposed to snow all this weekend, wouldn't it be great if the Lord smiled down on us and gave us some wonderful snow-less weather?? I know right! So we're gonna pray on that. I have a cute purple dress that I have for Easter that I want to wear but I will be freezing. I have a nice sweater to wear with it on the oh so early Easter.
Thursday, March 20, 2008
Tuesday, February 26, 2008
*Yaaawwwwn*
I'm ready to bounce. I mean honestly, talk about dragging it out. Patiences is a virtue that I don't have. I'm trying to learn it though. I really am. I would love to have it ans say, " ah, in due time." Oh, no. I am totally bored here and ready to go.
I'm literally trying not to fall asleep. *Yawwwwwn*
Please tell me what to do to stop this dang sleep. I like blogs that aren't all deep all the time. My thoughts get pretty deep. Yet, sometimes, it's as simple as 'I'm sleepy.' Nothing in depth, nothing profound; just sleep. I was told today that if I never used another semi-colon in my life, I'd be fine. I agree. I hate them. I just used one didn't I? Well, that's how you know I"m sleepy. I'm using semi-colons for no good reason.
I can't think of anything else to say. I'm that sleepy.
*yawwwn*
I'm literally trying not to fall asleep. *Yawwwwwn*
Please tell me what to do to stop this dang sleep. I like blogs that aren't all deep all the time. My thoughts get pretty deep. Yet, sometimes, it's as simple as 'I'm sleepy.' Nothing in depth, nothing profound; just sleep. I was told today that if I never used another semi-colon in my life, I'd be fine. I agree. I hate them. I just used one didn't I? Well, that's how you know I"m sleepy. I'm using semi-colons for no good reason.
I can't think of anything else to say. I'm that sleepy.
*yawwwn*
Monday, February 25, 2008
14 Months!
So the wedding of the decade is in 14 months! Get off me! Get off me! I'm so excited because I love Andrew so much it's ridiculous! I can't wait to be his wife! Dude, I never thought I'd say that. It seems so surreal that I'm gonna be someone's wife soon. Yes, compared to the rest of my life, 14 months is quick! I got a new job and things are really nice right now. I'm so grateful to God for this. He really does answer prayer. He also doesn't give you what isn't for you. When I look back over my life, and I think things over; I have a testimony! No, seriously, I do. I think about all the things I wanted that weren't for me and how God spared me from myself! How I truly didn't know what he had in store for me and almost took anything. There were also times when I new where I was, wasn't where I was supposed to be. So, I left. I'm glad I had to be put out of my comfort zone in order to be changed and have those things God had for me.
I'm still trying to be obedient to Him and do those things that are pleasing! I'm so honored to be Drew's wife (when it happens).
14 Months to go!! I'm gonna be real. I'm so geeked for the glitz and glitter, mostly because I know we truly do have a reason to celebrate.
Amen!!! Amen.
I'm still trying to be obedient to Him and do those things that are pleasing! I'm so honored to be Drew's wife (when it happens).
14 Months to go!! I'm gonna be real. I'm so geeked for the glitz and glitter, mostly because I know we truly do have a reason to celebrate.
Amen!!! Amen.
Thursday, February 21, 2008
Marriage
My brother is getting married Sunday. They sort of eloped. We all knew about it, but they are past the frivolities at this point. Twelve years and five children later, it's just time to go for it; and I couldn't be happier for them.
My parents have been married for 32 years come this September and they fight like cats and dogs. I think that's where I get my confrontational attitude from. Well, I see the dynamics of my parents shaping my relationship right now. My mother was an only child. She says she wasn't spoiled, there is substantial evidence to prove otherwise. When they disagree, she retreats. She goes to "her space" and gets over it. Drew does the same thing. My dad, much like myself, had siblings growing up. When he got mad, I'm guessing he confronts it and deals with it then and there. That's my philosophy. I don't think there is a point in walking away and getting over it. There is warrent to letting steam off, but you still have to confront the issue. To me, there is nothing more irratating than confronting issues over and over and over again.
I see my parents in our relationships often. Even in our love for each other. Which brings me to my brother. I am happy that they are getting married. I'm happy that they are committing to each other. That is a helluva committment.
There is a point where you are scared as all get out that one fight is gonna be the "big one". That it will just take that quake of an argument to end the relationship. Some people don't wed because of that. They are like, what if? What if we fight and end it, what if I give everything of myself, and put it all out there naked-like, baby born, and raw; and he/she craps on me? That's a big what if. But it is a thought that I have at least thought about. I have been scared like that and really wondered, what the heck I'm doing being engaged to someone, letting them have that peice of me.
Then there is that point when something else happens. It doesn't even have to be that big scary fight you've feared. It could just be that moment when something; ( don't ask me what it is, I don't know for sure) inside you says. Why not? It is a bit more sophisticated than that, I don't want to mislead people into thinking that they can just go up to strangers and say ' why not?' and have at it. Yet, when you really disect all of the intricate parts of your heart, and that other person is an integral piece of it, then you're on to something. So yes, time does have to be a factor. Experiences do have to happen; as my readings have taught me, a marriage has to take place before the actual wedding.
I'm glad that after 12 years, a marriage has taken place. After 32 years, there is still a marriage there. After a year and a half, me and drew are committed to building our marriage. Even after April 09', we will have to continue to work on it, but it will be there. That marriage will have been established and we will have something to celebrate!
My parents have been married for 32 years come this September and they fight like cats and dogs. I think that's where I get my confrontational attitude from. Well, I see the dynamics of my parents shaping my relationship right now. My mother was an only child. She says she wasn't spoiled, there is substantial evidence to prove otherwise. When they disagree, she retreats. She goes to "her space" and gets over it. Drew does the same thing. My dad, much like myself, had siblings growing up. When he got mad, I'm guessing he confronts it and deals with it then and there. That's my philosophy. I don't think there is a point in walking away and getting over it. There is warrent to letting steam off, but you still have to confront the issue. To me, there is nothing more irratating than confronting issues over and over and over again.
I see my parents in our relationships often. Even in our love for each other. Which brings me to my brother. I am happy that they are getting married. I'm happy that they are committing to each other. That is a helluva committment.
There is a point where you are scared as all get out that one fight is gonna be the "big one". That it will just take that quake of an argument to end the relationship. Some people don't wed because of that. They are like, what if? What if we fight and end it, what if I give everything of myself, and put it all out there naked-like, baby born, and raw; and he/she craps on me? That's a big what if. But it is a thought that I have at least thought about. I have been scared like that and really wondered, what the heck I'm doing being engaged to someone, letting them have that peice of me.
Then there is that point when something else happens. It doesn't even have to be that big scary fight you've feared. It could just be that moment when something; ( don't ask me what it is, I don't know for sure) inside you says. Why not? It is a bit more sophisticated than that, I don't want to mislead people into thinking that they can just go up to strangers and say ' why not?' and have at it. Yet, when you really disect all of the intricate parts of your heart, and that other person is an integral piece of it, then you're on to something. So yes, time does have to be a factor. Experiences do have to happen; as my readings have taught me, a marriage has to take place before the actual wedding.
I'm glad that after 12 years, a marriage has taken place. After 32 years, there is still a marriage there. After a year and a half, me and drew are committed to building our marriage. Even after April 09', we will have to continue to work on it, but it will be there. That marriage will have been established and we will have something to celebrate!
Wednesday, February 20, 2008
Love, Life, and PR
I love when people say, " I'm such a people person." That is so redundant. If you are a person, you are by existance, a people person.
The reality is that most people, by choice, aren't.
They go out of there way to avoid people. I don't know why that is. It just is. People love to avoid eye contact, speaking, touching, listening, and acting; all the things that makes us people.
I was inspired my former collegiate friend to return to my blog. It's so relaxing. Plus, I get a chance to write again.
Love: It's great. It's violent emotionally, but most things that are inconsistant, sporadic, heavy, and totally worth are. Sorry to state it to those hopeless romantics. Love is a tough. It is patient and kind and all of those things in II Corinthians, but it is also shared between two humans for the most part. We have to aspire to get that sort of love that God has; that AGAPE love. SO, what do humans do? We try so hard NOT to be people persons and we make love that much harder. In it's most quiet and worthwile moments; for me, love is beautiful.
Life: I'm here. What else can I say. Had this been May of 2007, had I had a class in Cole Hall; I might not be. All I can say, is that God has a purpose for my life. Outside of that; I really cannot complain.
PR: Back to this "people person" idea. I love when people say, " I'm a people person." I love that because it shows me that people really don't know much about themselves or PR for that matter. PR is not just about people. It's about people's minds. You have to be manipulative at best, persuasive at least, and you have to posess the ability to know when to be what to which people. I had a dream that I didn't know anything about PR. I thought that I should have been a firefighter or a teacher or something. I'm still going to be a professor, but maybe kindergarten or something. In that dream, I was so discouraged. I was being criticized daily, yelled at, ran ragged, and losing my mind trying to do "PR". Now that I think about it, it wasn't a dream. It was reality, I just fell asleep at my desk. I had a good mind to wake up and walk out.
Then something miraculous happend. I met a few people who told me that I did know exactly what I was talking about. They told me not to give up because I was made for this. They said things like " impressed" and " awesome" and " you are so easy to talk to".
I guess I am a people person.
The reality is that most people, by choice, aren't.
They go out of there way to avoid people. I don't know why that is. It just is. People love to avoid eye contact, speaking, touching, listening, and acting; all the things that makes us people.
I was inspired my former collegiate friend to return to my blog. It's so relaxing. Plus, I get a chance to write again.
Love: It's great. It's violent emotionally, but most things that are inconsistant, sporadic, heavy, and totally worth are. Sorry to state it to those hopeless romantics. Love is a tough. It is patient and kind and all of those things in II Corinthians, but it is also shared between two humans for the most part. We have to aspire to get that sort of love that God has; that AGAPE love. SO, what do humans do? We try so hard NOT to be people persons and we make love that much harder. In it's most quiet and worthwile moments; for me, love is beautiful.
Life: I'm here. What else can I say. Had this been May of 2007, had I had a class in Cole Hall; I might not be. All I can say, is that God has a purpose for my life. Outside of that; I really cannot complain.
PR: Back to this "people person" idea. I love when people say, " I'm a people person." I love that because it shows me that people really don't know much about themselves or PR for that matter. PR is not just about people. It's about people's minds. You have to be manipulative at best, persuasive at least, and you have to posess the ability to know when to be what to which people. I had a dream that I didn't know anything about PR. I thought that I should have been a firefighter or a teacher or something. I'm still going to be a professor, but maybe kindergarten or something. In that dream, I was so discouraged. I was being criticized daily, yelled at, ran ragged, and losing my mind trying to do "PR". Now that I think about it, it wasn't a dream. It was reality, I just fell asleep at my desk. I had a good mind to wake up and walk out.
Then something miraculous happend. I met a few people who told me that I did know exactly what I was talking about. They told me not to give up because I was made for this. They said things like " impressed" and " awesome" and " you are so easy to talk to".
I guess I am a people person.
Wednesday, September 26, 2007
Grad School, Weird Job, Engagement , so WHY am I not happy Blues....womp womp!
There is something to be said about discontentment. Is that even a word? Perhaps not, but the idea is that being dissatisfied is a horrible disease to have, especially when it seems you have everything going for you. Take me por ejemplo. I have a "cool" job, starting graduate school, and recently engaged to a make whom I adore. WHY THEN, am I so ......how do you say.....*sigh*?
The idea that you should just "be grateful" is one to be pondered. Should you really just sit back and settle for what you have not aspire to be better than you are? That may be too deep. Should you really just sit back in your depression and not try to solve that which irritates you? I say no!
In regards to my job. Things are changing. Some would say, [and by some I mean my fiance'] that I am just never happy. On the contrary, I am a genuinely happy person. I have a cheerful disposition. Yet, it appears that I am never satisfied. Why should I be? I am on my fourth internship/job/apprenticeship / busy work crap job and honesty, I DO want benefits. What's wrong with that? But I'll say, time and time again, I'm not gonna be here forever. They better get all the free work out of me, because when I hit the ground, I'm running non-stop and coming with a hefty price tag. "KNOW YOUR VALUE" I believe I do. So what's wrong with not wanting to repeat the "Devil Wears Prada " scenes time and time again, when you know you deserve more. ( And even Ann Hathaway's character got paid and received some groovy garments and a trip to Pari' for her woes) In all honesty, I'd wait till we got to Paris to " figure out" that I didn't want to be in that industry too! Spot on!
I just think that being ungrateful and being, well, hungry are two different things.
Now to get to grad school. Nothing is wrong with it, I love it. It's harder than I thought. But I'm moving along.
The "FIANCE'".........
He's good. I don't want to defame the boy, but.....if you've ever been in love or had a HARD job, or are married, then you know really what I'm talking about. It's just tough. No one said it would be easy. I guess that's what they meant when they said, " no one said it would be easy". Now, some do say, " It's a lot of fun." Granted, we do have our fun moments. I can appreciate a good laugh or tickle with the man. It's just really, really, new. Like brand new shoes. Sometimes, they are uncomfortable, awkward, and even painful. But once you get them on for a while and wear them enough, you get all sorts of nice compliments. You find out that they go with everything you own, and you never want to part from them. There are so many other similarities, it's almost uncanny. I won't spout them out now. I do believe you get the point.
He's alright with me.
The bottom line is.....I am happy. I should be 'THRILLED" but in life, the only thrills are in roller-coaster rides, and when people hide behind corners just to jump out and go "BOO!".....Then you laugh hysterically and go, " OMG, you scared me!". That was the point. It was "thrilling."
I am probably not as giddy as a newly engaged girl should be, but I'm giving it time to set it. We bought cookware last night, and that scared me. I can't believe how much that scared me. It's like real life. All of this is real. The fall is real, and it's coming on slowly, and it's also very beautiful.
The idea that you should just "be grateful" is one to be pondered. Should you really just sit back and settle for what you have not aspire to be better than you are? That may be too deep. Should you really just sit back in your depression and not try to solve that which irritates you? I say no!
In regards to my job. Things are changing. Some would say, [and by some I mean my fiance'] that I am just never happy. On the contrary, I am a genuinely happy person. I have a cheerful disposition. Yet, it appears that I am never satisfied. Why should I be? I am on my fourth internship/job/apprenticeship / busy work crap job and honesty, I DO want benefits. What's wrong with that? But I'll say, time and time again, I'm not gonna be here forever. They better get all the free work out of me, because when I hit the ground, I'm running non-stop and coming with a hefty price tag. "KNOW YOUR VALUE" I believe I do. So what's wrong with not wanting to repeat the "Devil Wears Prada " scenes time and time again, when you know you deserve more. ( And even Ann Hathaway's character got paid and received some groovy garments and a trip to Pari' for her woes) In all honesty, I'd wait till we got to Paris to " figure out" that I didn't want to be in that industry too! Spot on!
I just think that being ungrateful and being, well, hungry are two different things.
Now to get to grad school. Nothing is wrong with it, I love it. It's harder than I thought. But I'm moving along.
The "FIANCE'".........
He's good. I don't want to defame the boy, but.....if you've ever been in love or had a HARD job, or are married, then you know really what I'm talking about. It's just tough. No one said it would be easy. I guess that's what they meant when they said, " no one said it would be easy". Now, some do say, " It's a lot of fun." Granted, we do have our fun moments. I can appreciate a good laugh or tickle with the man. It's just really, really, new. Like brand new shoes. Sometimes, they are uncomfortable, awkward, and even painful. But once you get them on for a while and wear them enough, you get all sorts of nice compliments. You find out that they go with everything you own, and you never want to part from them. There are so many other similarities, it's almost uncanny. I won't spout them out now. I do believe you get the point.
He's alright with me.
The bottom line is.....I am happy. I should be 'THRILLED" but in life, the only thrills are in roller-coaster rides, and when people hide behind corners just to jump out and go "BOO!".....Then you laugh hysterically and go, " OMG, you scared me!". That was the point. It was "thrilling."
I am probably not as giddy as a newly engaged girl should be, but I'm giving it time to set it. We bought cookware last night, and that scared me. I can't believe how much that scared me. It's like real life. All of this is real. The fall is real, and it's coming on slowly, and it's also very beautiful.
Monday, September 24, 2007
NBRS Conference September 2007
I am still high from attending my very first National Black Public Relations Society Conference and Career fair! I had the most wonderful time and I can feel that I am all the better for it. I am energized and encouraged and very hopeful for my career. When I think to myself," Why am I doing this? Is this what I'm supposed to be doing?" I begin to doubt whether or not PR is really my niche. Well, after seeing some very successful and AWESOME PR professionals both seasoned and new ( like myself) I know that it is.
At 23, it can be very confusing. After all, how are you to know at the age of 19 or 20 what it is you want to be doing for the next thirty year??? That is an unrealistic expectation of anyone. However, I took a chance on PR and it's paying off ten-fold. I met some amazing people who are where I want to be, and keep my fire burning for this industry. Among the PR Giants: Tom Burrell, Michelle Flowers, Lynn S. Jackson, just to name a few! Lynn, is the delightful woman I had the opportunity to have lunch with and FORCED me to get up and speak to Kim Hunter and get his card. That type of mentoring is invaluable. Though she may not know it, she helped me overcome something I've been struggling with. My shyness. I am so shy and the first night there, I was stricken with it. There were so many people there that I didn't want to just walk up and seem phony, but I wasn't sure what to say to them.
Lynn said, " no, you go up there with me and get his [Kim's] card yourself." She also delivered a great workshop on strategic writing. Thank you Lynn.
And thank you to all those attendees, presenters, PR GIANTS and speakers who enhanced my zeal for this profession.
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